I am confused with my ex boyfriend

I am confused with my ex boyfriend. I am a Filipina and my ex-boyfriend was a Black/Hispanic American. I'm 32 years old while he was 42 year old. I've been in my relationship with him started it in April 2004, and unexplained reason suddenly ended in 2007. We must marry in 2005 but it failed. He had plenty of reason and had doubts about marrying me. What is the reason? I don't know, he's the only one who knows his own reason. And I felt him change his dealings with me. Good to hear those sweet words and promises from the person you really loved and it really feels good in your heart. I really love him with all my heart... And it seems like there's no end to the joy I feel every time I am with him.

I never thought that our relationships will end and all his promises to me will lose. He told me since changed my physique has changed his feelings for me. His feelings to me is still the same but he does not like changing my appearance. He wanted me to do is to back my appearance just like the time we first met. Seems very hard for me to do the things he wants me to do because I'm only human and everything in this world was fading. When he says, Give me my space... It seems I guessed what he wants... His freedom.

He changed its attitude to me and avoided me for several years. It's so painful for me but I have no choice but to give his wish... His freedom and that was the year 2007. I had a strange feeling to him the last time we were together. While we were together in his lodging hotel room in Manila he seemed restless, he always hold his cell phone and had to text someone else on his phone. I just watched him while he was texting someone else. When I asked him who he text with, he answered me, he said that was one of his co-worker in the band. But I feel strange and I feel he is not telling the truth. I feel he has some hidden secrets with me. My suspicion he has another woman and I have a strong feeling about it. And my suspicion was truth.

I discovered the real reason why he wanted me to come home early.
He sent me early so I can not catch the arrival of his woman. I was having the opportunity to be with him every time he goes to the Philippines for vacation... Because he was playing the band as bass guitarist here in Asia.

I suffered for a long time and tried to forget him, and not so easy to forget the pain caused by his infidelity to me.

I accidentally visited this site and read some letters from other people like me with problems and gave me the ideas. Now only I had the courage to write to this site for help with my problem because my mind still confused and I do not know what to do?

I started receiving messages from my ex. I do not know is what his true motives and what he really wants? I don't know what I should do... I don't know if I should answer all his messages? I still have feelings for him. And I can not explain what is going on me starting we had communication with each other again. I'm starting to received I'm message, email and text message from him. This is the email he sent to me yesterday

"I have told you the truth about my life... I have nothing to hide! I was hoping that you would send me a photo of the woman that captured my heart in April of 2004. I have been waiting for so long for you Aimee... When will you just be up front with me?"

Please someone help me what should I do? Thanks!