Hi!
*sigh* Long distance relationships...
I have been writing on this forum like crazy tonight. I think your situation, however, sounds quite familiar.
First of all, feel accomplished for making it for as long as you did. A few weeks ago I had all the optimism in the world in regards to long distance relationships, but sometimes you have to face the facts.
My boyfriend broke off a long distance relationship last week. He was the first guy I ever loved and I thought he was pretty happy. He moved halfway across the country for graduate school. I have two more years until I graduate from undergraduate school and well, two years didn't seem like such a big deal. We lasted about sixty days (so you see why I applaud all the time things worked for you). He couldn't even wait until Thanksgiving.
Anyway, when you really think about it two years is an extremely long amount of time. People CHANGE in two years. Experiences change people. Other people change people. Even if you guys got back together it would never be as blissful as when you first got things going. And if you did there would be all that rebuilding of the relationship.
I know what you mean about about wondering what she was doing while you were away. I cannot tell you how many times people told me that my boyfriend was probably cheating on me. When I asked them why they thought that they said BECAUSE that is how it works. Oh really? So I listened to their incessant nagging and I became insecure and bugged my boyfriend far too much. He had his own stresses to deal with and I was only adding to them by asking him who such and such was and things along those lines. I don't know why I was so shocked when he told me it wasn't working for him.
Now I am trying to move on and I suggest you do the same. Even if you still love her, you should move on as well. You probably can't even look at another woman right now, right? Well think of it this way (as I think of it). She said things are over. Shes probably already moved on. It is unfair to torture yourself with what might be. I made plans too. But you have to let them go. You have to BOTH want things to work equally in a long distance relationship. Holding on to hope that things will work out eventually will only keep you from moving on and finding someone who will really love you not matter what little flaws and insecurities you may have.
Its probably not what you want to hear. I understand that. I wish I could tell you to go for it, but what would that accomplish? Find someone closer. People keep telling me that there are 9,000 men on campus. Not one of them will do right now 'cause they're not my ex. There are women all over there as well
Sorry this message is so long. I was just in your position and am finally letting go (well that may be a slight lie). Once you accept you can begin to move on! OH. And whatever you do, cut the contact with your ex. Don't drag things out!
Too funny!! Anyway long distance relatiionships cannot work. Hell, most relationships can't work when you live in the same town for that matter. 
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