My daughter won't speak to me,, got into real bad place in my life when she was young and abused her with very hard discipline,, apologized in depth several times, asked God's forgiveness, and find it very hard to forgive myself,{I am supposed to but hard} cant begin to fix things with my grown daughter cause she won't speak to me but twice a year for 30 minutes,, she holds on to her hatred of me and I know it affects her life a lot,, any suggestions ***?