You're not alone, trust me.
Why do people push religion on others, because they think they are right. By bringing you in to the mix they add yet another person to the flock, another person that thinks and feels the same way. It's confirmation that their beliefs are right, otherwise why would so many people follow one religion?
I have struggled with religion for many years, more than half my life. My conclusion, religion is man made and man run, teaching about a book that is also man written.
Only you can decide what you believe and why. If you are seeking religion then that's not a bad thing, if it's what you want. If you believe in the bible and it's teachings then that's what you should follow. If you have questions then you should be allowed to ask them. It's all up to you.
I do believe in God, but not in organized religion, nor do I believe that the bible is "the word of God". I refuse to be another sheep in the flock, but that's my preference.
Be proud of who you are and what you believe, you don't have to conform for anyone.