I think you've already found your 'religion' as it were

Trust me, when the Pope goes to sleep at night he is as full of doubt as anyone else.
This may not help, but here's a couple of things worth pondering:
#The existence of the Universe is impossible.
#Nothing's Impossible.
#The point at which something or someone becomes 'alive' or 'dead' cannot be defined.
#Nothing exists without conciousness.
#Your own existence is impossible.
What I'm driving at is even though the 'greyness' and mundanity of the world seems invincible, there is every reason to believe that there is something more.
If you were to ask me what that 'something more' is, I'd say that everything that ever happens is by your own design and that
everything you want will come to you.
A lot of people don't think about this stuff at all - a response I often read is "you die and that's it".. Which sounds simple and logical, but apart from the fact that they are totally ignorant of the implications of that statement, there is absolutely no evidence that it is true.