OK I know that you all don't know me-but I am in desperation right now. I've been going through some really tough times in my life and believe it or not, I feel like God is angry with me...maybe for making some bad decisions, i don't know. But every decision I make is for nothing but the best of intentions. Well, anyhow, can I get some prayers out for me and my family (children)? I would rather not specify exactly why with all details right now, but I just need some prayers in my life, other than my own. I feel like everything is falling apart and I don't know where to turn to for help.
Thanks so much.

ScottGem

Let me first say that what this site is about is support. Whether it be the answer to a question of how to hook up your printer or replace a drain pipe or your spirtual life. I can't speak for everyone, but I think the vast majority of those who post here want only the best for all the members. And our thoughts, hopes and prayers go with that.

However, I personally do not believe in a God that gets angry with its followers and causes things to go wrong for them in retaliation. I believe strongly in free will. I believe we are responsible for our own actions. I say this in the hope that you realize that you are in control of your life. That there isn't some omnipotent being making things go against you out of spite, revenge or whatever. I hope that that realization can give you the strength to get you past this time of trouble.

Depressed in MO

I think I may have miscommunited previously. I don't think God is angry with me and is retaliating against me. I think that he is disappointed in me that is all. I have not done anything wrong except for love people that possibly dont love me back, try to help them even though it tears apart everyone else who truely does love me...my list goes on and on (you may know some things if you have read any of my other posts)I just feel like I am in a dead end, a no win situation and am to the point to where only the power of prayer can help me, and I don't feel strong enough inside to where my prayers will be enough. I believe in God and all that, but i don't do as I should such as go to church every Sunday-I have sinned a lot in my life and at this point...I don't even know what to say.

Starman

God knows that we are dust and that we will make mistakes. If you are dissapointed with yourself, all God wants you to do is to learn from your mistakes and continue on. If others misunderstand you and sin by doing so, pray that they gain wisdom and become better persons. Ask God to forgive them as he forgives you.

Psalm 106:1
Praise the LORD! Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.

He wants you to feel that you can approach him in prayer as you would aproach a loving father. I'll add my prayer to yours.

milliec

Hi Mo!
(may I call you "Mo"?)
First, I'd like to stress that I've been through terribly hard times , and I know how you feel. I don't remember when but at a certain point in my life, it struck me, that I don't think I'm that important for God to eye me closely.
I've found out, that whenever I was in a terrible situation I had nothing to do with, the situation was solved, without me having, again, anything to do with the solution, and against all possible statistical odds!
I'm truly convinced there is something above all, but I see this as a very caring, forgiving, loving, and compassionate "something".
I don't think there is any kind of "accounting" involved.
Just continue being honest and true. With yourself first, and with others.
Try not to judge others, it's not our job.
I'm not saying you do. I'm only speaking in a general way.
Remember: it might not look like it, but others have their problems and hard times, only, we don't know, and when we see them, and we're in a difficult situation, we think we have the worst part. Everyone thinks so! Whenever I'm in a very bad "spot", i like to look at people who seem happy, it makes me feel good, because i see happiness really exists!
I don't have any special prayer, and I don't attend religious services, I just pray from the bottom of my heart, with own words.I can't say it always works, but many times it does! Really!
And when i pray in this way, it already makes me feel better.
And: if it doesn't happen the way i ask for, i keep in mind that it might not fit into the bigger frame, the one i can't even grasp, after all, I'm just an ant!
In any case, why should i always have my way.
I don't know if I helped, i really wished to! I don't know what is it th exactly what make you so unhappy, if you think i can help, i'd really like to - you can write here, or send me a PM, or email me :milliec@nana.co.il
Another thing, maybe it's not the right time for you, but I must say I often wondered at the name you chose, I understand that's the way you feel, but sometimes, the way we perceive ourselves, pushes us further towards this same situation.
Please consider it,and I hope we'll see the time when the name you chose will not make you sad, but you'll smile to see yourself away from this situation.
Is'nt it possible for you to see a good counsellor?
Please let me know hoe you are,
Take care,
Millie

Depressed in MO

Thanks for your reply. Counselors cost money-money in which I have none of. Yes, I work-everyday. I don't feel as though I have it in the worst possible way-I make my own decisions-I"m just at a place where I feel I have no support and am all alone. Not looking for sympathy, not looking for attention-just maybe a suggestion or two of a different perspective.
At this time, I don't perceive myself that well because of the way I have been treated; however every day I am working on a brighter future-don't get me wrong. I am lost and trying to find my ways. I find myself falling into bad health these days-headaches and sickening to my stomach. I mostly feel that I am at a point where I need to get away, but if I do, then things would probably be worse. I am really afraid that I am dying of stress.

milliec

First of all: don't be afraid - this will only make you weaker. What you say you feel has obviously to do with stress but it's good to see a doc. just to put your mind at rest, and that you won't have to worry about your physical condition.
From your answer i can't see what makes you feel so bad - but of course you bring up things the way you can.
if you think you can get more help here, please do
take care,
millie

sweetface

Hello Depressed in MO,

I can truly relate! I don't feel like God is angry with me, but I feel like I am a failure. However, as each day goes by, I am alive!!! And Thank God for that!!! Counslors do cost money. So if you ever need someone to talk to a shoulder to cry on, I will be here

milliec

Oh dear!
First of all, I surely don't know enough to rule out automatically what you two are saying, but I won't have the failure thing! Please, what makes you think so?
I'm sure both of you are very young, and if we could look closer at each of your life stories, we would come to the conclusion that you both have overpassed difficulties - and even making it another day is sometimes a lot!
What have you failed?
your own expectations? other people's expectations? failure compared to others?
It's good to have an understanding shoulder to cry on, but there's more to it, and i,( and surely others too), would like to help.
Please don't get yourself into the "nobody's been through this.."
"nobody understands"
you'll be surprised what other have been through, and how often they felt the way you do, but there's always a way out, and when you feel so low, you sometimes don't see it.
i really care, and i know how you feel right now, but remember: it's right now, you'll be surprised how things change in life (i'm 60, so i saw quite a few tings, and i always pray for things not to get worst, and i'm grateful when they get better)
take care dear, and remember i'd like to help, if you think it will do.
millie

Depressed in MO

Thank you Sweetface. And same to you.