I believe in hell Chava, but it may not match the hell other people believe in or exactly what you had in mind but I hope this is okay. If not, stop reading here?
The hell I know is here on earth - It was visited a few times against my will (shares a ptsd past with you) and now as a part of what I am routinely asked to do here.
I don't know that this particular hell comes in degrees, or even that its designed to punish anyone - the specific circumstances of it vary greatly. But I do know without question that all human suffering is equal. Pain is pain in any language. And some of the worst pain is self inflicted because its so hard to fathom.
I acquired an understanding one day that we each are ultimately held accountable for our actions (both good and bad). How I come by that is tougher to explain but it is an almost unshakable belief when very few of my beliefs are that solid. This accounting appears to me as absolutely unavoidable so I have long ago let go of any concern that "they are getting away with it". I know they aren't and so therefore neither am I.
Better to concentrate now on making heaven on earth instead too.
