| I think it means that you were put in a terrible situation with the murder of someone on whom you had a crush, and who had a crush on you, and who was so important to his sister - your best friend. You didn't have a chance to try your feelings out with him and so they've taken on this whole life of their own. Perhaps he's looking over you and your sister. Think of him as your angel but he is not your guy - there is a life to be lived, and this loss will teach you and help you to know the right man when you find him, and will also help you to appreciate him as you should given how fragile life can be. |