Originally Posted by rockerchick_682
Just...ugh. Every once in a while life just sucks. Everythings going fine and then I make a stupid mistake! I can never find the right balance. I either explode in anger or in tears. As hard as I try to let things go, I can't sometimes. I've been trying so hard to make my life the way everyone else wants to see it that I don't know what I want anymore. One minute I'll be sane and make the right decisions and the next it's just wrong.
I guess my question is, does anyone else feel this way?
Another situation- my mom. She spends the majority of her time playing an online rpg game (Everquest). She'll stay up till two o'clock in the morning playing it and then is late to work the next day. Every time I ask to spend time with her (don't live with her) she says she has to play the game, like some quest, or that she's tired because she spent too much time playing it the night before. She has these "boyfriends" from the game that she talks to pretty frequently. Recently she came back from Las Vegas and instead of spending time with my brother and I, she goes to her room to talk to one of these guys. It just sucks that a game is more important to her than me. I've told her this a million times but she could care less. I don't know what to do about it. There's nothing to do.
It's perfectly normal to experience the emotions you describe.
It's no fun to make mistakes but on the positive side,
It happens to everyone and it's the way we are most likely to learn.
I'm very sorry for the situation you are in with your mother.
I give you credit for your efforts in telling her how you feel and for expressing your desire of wanting to spend time with her.
If spilling your heart out to your mother has not made her realize that SHE'S missing out and you are repeatedly disappointed over her lack of interest,
Then it's my opinion that you should channel that energy in a more positive direction.
Put all that time and energy wasted on other people to good use
And focus on yourself and your future.
Maybe your mother will come around one of these days, and maybe she won't.
Please try not to let your mothers short comings hold you back.
If you take care of yourself first and foremost, you won't have sat
Around waiting for everyone else to move...you will have made something out of yourself and your life...which makes it a lot easier to forgive and accept
Others for their wrong doings in the future....
Your mothers behavior is in NO way right or acceptable, I'm only suggesting you not allow this bad behavior to influence your life in a negative way.