| Sasorry,
It sounds as though you are going through a really rough patch in your life right now. What is happening to you is hard for anyone of any age.
I did notice though that you say you are still here because of your boyfriend and because of God. Do you go to church often? Are you a member of a particular church in your area? If you are, I would like to suggest that you talk to your preacher about your problems. They are very good at listening and helping to find alternatives.
Have you discussed anything with your school counselor? If not, this may be a good place to start also.
Hurting yourself should not be considered an option. It may sound harsh, but many believe that suicide is a coward's way out. Now, don't get me wrong, I have an uncle that committed suicide, so I am familiar at least with what the family and friends have to go through when a loved one does this. So, please don't consider this as an option. It is something that you can't take back and do over once it is done.
If you father physicall and emotionally abuses you, have you tried to contact child protective services? How does your mother treat you? Can you talk to her? Are there other family members you may be able to talk to?
Please, if you can't go to your school counselor, at least make an appointment with a preacher to discuss your problems. They are good at finding alternative help to your situation. | 
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