I too, would like to hear what you have to say mimisan. You don't have to be afraid of posting out in the open on this site. You haven't posted any information that identifies you personally, other than you are a person in need of help.
Usually, the more ideas from people, the better, on this site when people are in some kind of personal, emotional help.
The following is a quote of your response to a post by someone else who has used this site. I wanted to quote you to show that we are serious about listening to you.
im much younger than you in my teens(not to make you feel old at 28 ) but I have the same problem I just can't seem to make friends. And the only friends I do have are also through my boyfriend. But recently I started living with my sister but its only for a short amoutn of time but since I have been here I have started to become a verry spiritual person. She introduced me to the church again and I think that is what I needed but I'm still in the early stages. Maybe you might want to seek spiritual help. But I feel the same way as you do I also think about killing my self but I know that that's not what I should do I know I should live out my life. But I just need to find ways to cope and so do you. So you might want to take me up on my offer and try the spiritual rout. And this dude obove me is verry wrong you shouldn't talk to your neighbors what would that do but just make you and them feel akward about living next to echother so maybe my advice will work a little better for you ....I hope it does.....get baq to me on what you think