i would really like to talk to soemone right now, i can't stop crying. I'll talk about your kids, or your relationship anything, i just need to talk to somebody I'm not suicidal a am just really sad right now

goingoofy2

wutz wrong dear..

snapdragon

i don't really know, i do this to myself every once in a while. I feel like everything is a mess, and i am five years old. i want to go crawl into a corner and cry. I'm very pessimistic, closed minded and i make myself miserable. I put myself down all the time, and I tell myself that most things are my fault. I used to write in a journal, but, that doesn't seem to help any. I just need somebody who understands what i'm going through to talk to. I need a friend

snapdragon

i want to stop crying

Wondergirl

I can only imagine this is the worst way a person can feel! I'm guessing that, when this feeling hits you, you don't give a hoot about anything--would just like for it all to go away. Have you seen a doctor about these feelings of depression? If so, what did he/she say? If not, what might be holding you back?

snapdragon

I can't really get myself to go out. I don't have insurance, and i sometimes feel such strong anxiety at the thought of going outside alone. I hate leaving the apartment, i'm scared to and i don't know why

Wondergirl

You don't go out at all? Does this change from day to day or week to week?

When were you outside the apartment most recently?

snapdragon

I guess, the longest i've ever stayed in the apartment was three days straight. I go out for the mail, and if my boyfriend drags me out to do something, because he knows what's going on with me. so he tries to help. he just doesn't understand it. most recently i was out yesterday. my family was here for the weekend. but, i haven't been outside today. itjust depends on the week and my state of mind.

goingoofy2

Snappy ... can u make a list? A list of likes and dislikes? It is sometimes easier when things are on paper/computer. Then take that list and make it a point to work on each one be it negative or positive. The positive you do after you have taken a deep breath and decided you are going to be happy today ....the negative are the ones you need to look at and understand why they are on that side ... and how you can transfer them to the positive side. I've done it, I've had friends do it and it often seems to work.

Another thing would be to take a womans one-a-day vitamin ... they are the best thing on the market for perking your spirits up as well as being nutritional good for you ...eating healthy makes for a healthy mind as well.

I've dealt with depression all my life, it's only been in the last 10 years that I've felt my best ...I've had to work at it but I'll tell you what an amazing feeling. Nobody out there can make you feel good, only you can make you feel good, then you can make those around you feel good too.

Take a deep breath and smile real big my friend ...it's a great start and it'll make you feel better!!

snapdragon

I really appreciate you guys talking to me, no matter how much i think about it it just doesn't make sense to me. why am i like this? why do i do this to myself? Why does everything seem so pointless and uninteresting? Why are people so happy? can't they see what i see? I want to throw things all the time, I want to cry and hit the people i love. everything and everyone is meaningless. I can sit and think about nothing all day. my mind fills with dark clouds when i get into arguments with my boyfriend and it's as though I get lost and can't form words or feelings. I'm so frustrated, and i feel like i'm one of those people whose posts you read and you try to help a few times, but find it hopeless and give up. I'm sorry if you find all of this pointless, i'll understand.