hello every one,
Im 19 years old female.

Right now im in deeeep ,but im keeping my mouth shut.

Today my bestfriend,who i consider my life,Told me that there are thousand other problems He is facing and im not much important as they are.

There was a time He n I used to spent whole day together,But now Im a Problem for Him??

I Dont know what to say,How to react?
I just Accepted my mistake that Im sorry my friend. It was my mistake...

He use to call me His "smile source",n Now He is acting like He is very happy without me. .

I dont know why this is happening to me?? why ?

I loved him like anything!! im accepting mistakes which are not even mine!

i want to cry but i cant. . .
No one knows whats goin on inside me. .
I want to die,But im afraid of the pain.
Am I a Looser??
Yes! I am. . But just tell me? Is this my mistake that I love him?
More then my family! More then anyone in this world!
I know its a fault that im not loving my family,I dont care about them. but its the truth!!!
Its a damn truth! I dont care about anyone in this world! I was not like this some years before. . But im changed. Now the person I only care is my Bestfriend! He is the person I love,n He is my bestfriend Aswell.
what to do??
I dont want him to be sad,I love him. n I care about Him. Should I leave him for a while?
When I start thinking about this,the second thought comes in my mind is "Why u call yourself His friend,If you want to leave him in his hard days?" Just tell me? what should I do??
Regards.

SunnSand

no it is not a mistake whom you love, you can't help it, this is a hard one since I do not know what the issues are, but I have been in your shoes, not knowing what to do, if you want to tell me more or if you just need to vent i would be glad to listen, trust me I know how sometimes you just need a soundboard to talk to, I go through that alot!!!!

Fr_Chuck

We can't control the actions of others. And sadly sometimes things happen to come inbetween people.

Was there something that happened ?

Missinsumthin

Well let me tell you a little background.
It was all fine we were happy,But It was 22nd of october,That things were not goin in our way. .
His Grand Father was Admitted in Hospital,He was busy with his family. . After that we were like not knowing eachother's situation. I really felt that we need to talk and clear all the missunderstandings as we always do!!!
We always Call each other almost on every weekend,And we discuss about all the things,I was praying to God that please give us a chance to clear all the things which are creating fuss. Tonight we talked to each other after a Fight and after I accepted my mistakes without any hesitation.
But really He was not the same person I was talking to! He was really Sad n depressed. . I know he never share his family problems with me and I even not insist him to do. . Coz I know He cant share it to anyone,Not even with his cousins I guess. .
Now basically the problem is,That I dont know what has happened to him. . He was so silent n I just cant explain how I felt when I listened his voice. . I was thrashed! I cant see him like this.
and What I feel is that He is facing problems regarding his family matter's but I cannot ask him,coz He dont like to share. . you know what Guys? right now even I dont know what my problem is. . I always share my thoughts,feelings every thing with him. . I have no friends around me. And when He is failed to hear me or understand me. then where I should go?
I want him to be okay,I want him to be happy. I love him. . He doesnt loves me the way I love him. . But its not in my hands to stop loving him. . . Please guys! Help me out. & If you cant then just please listen to me or talk to me. please!
Thanks alot to Fr_Chuck n SunnSand,I really appreciate this. Thanks alot guys!
May you always be Happy!