| I guess I should learn to not dwell on the past. Whatever happened, happened and I should learn from it. Even if I never will get to see that girl again I shouldn't have that thought mess me over. If she's there right now, thats all that matters. If she's there tomorrow, or I wished we did better last night, are thoughts that aren't welcome in my mind.
I don't see myself as an alcoholic so please don't think I drank that much for the sake of feeling good and having the chance of banging girls. Actually, my stomach was empty before I drank so I think a couple of shots was enough for me to at least get drunk. I screwed up and all I can do now is either remove that thought and live right now or just dwell on it until I find out that no one really remembers that moment. |