I have 15 out of 17 signs of depression from a website, almost every quiz I've taken says I have severe depression or bipolar, I'm an actress naturally so I naturally hide my feelings, and can't help it. I have a lot of trouble, even on IM, saying that I'm not ok, (unless to total strangers like this) my mother is 56, just had knee surgery, and I'm taking care of her like I would have to if I were 30 to 40 (I'm 13) my parents are divorced and my father doesn't love me or want me, in court he said I wasn't his kid, I had percousious puberty at age seven they gave me shots and prolonged it till ten, I've been sexually harrassed and molested more times then I can count, I feel like I'm my mother's mother, and I deal with everyone else's problems, I feel like trash because of my ways of coping with these problems, I've cut my wrist five times, once my mother saw and I felt AWFUL for it and even worse, then I thought about suicide, still am, but I have strong will power so either I have the will NOT to do it and won't or will do it, I also have high pain tolerance so that doesn't help, excuse me for venting and running on but I need help and you need to know ALL of the facts to help me, so
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Fr_Chuck

You need professional help, locally, not help from those of us on these online sites. While many mean well, none of us are trained to help you, or even if we are, not able to over online sites.

talk to your couselor or teacher at school, and they may be able to help you get the professional help you need

darknessfell32

That's the problem, my school couselors (excuse my french) a ****, and we have no money to talk to a pyschologist, I'm really sorry, but are there any other suggestions? I'm really sorry.

One more thing, I can't tell my mother or any adult that would tell my mother because I can't put anymore weight on her then what she's baring, it might lead to her suicide or insitutionalizing, which would be bad

heladoman

If you can't afford medical help, talking to a pastor sometimes helps. If he can't help, maybe he knows someone who can, for little, or no cost.

velvetjones

You may want to try a local free or sliding fee scale clinic and/or contacting your local social services agency for referrals/information. They're not all jerks. It sounds like your mom might need some help too?

kitkat77774

You need to get help. Talk to your doctor or school therapist. They will send you in the right direction before this gets worse.

valinors_sorrow

Wow, I can appreciate the overload you are feeling. Do you live in the US? I ask, Darknessfell, because my suggestion is location-specific.