im having trouble with everything in my life if anyone cares post anything on this cause im probally going to kill myself if theres no one who will care if i die

SDRAWKCAB-SDRAWROF

If you can't sleep, try and get a white noise machine, take up meditation? do something relaxing to try and clear your brain.

akms

thnks for the help but sleep isnt my big problem so please stop posting about how to sleep better

SDRAWKCAB-SDRAWROF

what is the big problem apart from you wanting to kill yourself? what is it thats making you feel like this? generally this stems from something?

akms

read through all the earlier posts i stated most of the bigger ones there

SDRAWKCAB-SDRAWROF

ok...this is gonna be a stupid question but what makes u happy? like...u no frends n stuff? cos like i no when i feel really at my worst and after being on anti depressants for quite sum time that happened a lot i needed my friends and stuff that makes me happy, even things like books n video games or a cuddly toy. i know it probably sounds lame, but thats what helped me get thru really bad times.

akms

i like reading books ive already read again and i like listening to music

SDRAWKCAB-SDRAWROF

cool thats a start...how about reading one of your favourite books when you feel bad? sorta use it as a distraction or thinking about one of your fave songs? something to take your mind of everything when it all seems to be going wrong?

akms

well my favorite books are mostly pretty depressing and so is the music i listen to

METERRE

Here's a song I like to listen to and helps me when i'm feeling helpless. I don't know if you like that sort of music but you can look for a sample on the internet to listen to.
" See The Sun" by Trance Blackman.
In general, when i feel like that i listen to any type of uplifting music. And of course, pray to God. And he helps me a lot. And one piece of advice, don't mind the people which might criticize you, they just don't know what you're going through so that gives them no right to judge you in any way.

americangayboy

akms- you mentioned that you have a "shrink" but what does that mean? Is it a psychiatrist, psychologist, therapist? Let them know how you feel when you are trying to go to sleep. They care about more than just your current feelings; they can't help you if you don't tell them about all of your problems.

One more thing: you said your parents have the parental lock on every tv channel, are they excessively strict with you? Do they know that you're gender-queer? Are they sending you to a religiously affiliated therapist? If you are going to a religiously affiliated mental health professional, would it be possible to see someone else? I only ask because I'm afraid they'd put their religious beliefs ahead of your well-being.