im having trouble with everything in my life if anyone cares post anything on this cause im probally going to kill myself if theres no one who will care if i die

Capuchin

Try writing a little more about how you feel and why you feel that way, it will help people to help you.

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akms

o.k apperantly i have manic deppresion i am currently on hormone blockers i think i have night time anxiety because everythings scary and depressing when your lying in bed and everythings pitch black even though your eyes are open

Capuchin

I think you definately have some deep problems and should see your doctor so that he can direct you to a healthcare professional who can best help you.

akms

o.k apperantly i have manic deppresion i am currently on hormone blockers i think i have night time anxiety because everythings scary and depressing when your lying in bed and everythings pitch black even though your eyes are open ya know what i mean. my parents are getting divorced wich alone is living hell i see a shrink but im never deppresed when i see her because when im depressed enough to talk abot stuff its usually around 3 in the morning on a monday. i read news paper articles talking about bush (little idiot he is) or im at the sk8park and someone thinks that queer pple chose to be queer
and i want to hurt someone so badly that they understand what kindve pain im going through

and whenever i think of the future all i can see is me killing a bunch of pple than killing myself

akms

oh yeah and i have a healthcare professional

Clough

Perhaps playing the radio quietly with tunes that you like when you are trying to go to sleep would help you. When my daughter was younger, she used to do this.

akms

theres nothing on the radio its all something from the 70's or its some dude who thinks hes cool because hes so shallow/self centered that hes talking and calling it singing

the music i like is my chemical romance, linkin park (not there new album), red jumpsuit apparatus, gym class heroes, panic at the disco you get it and i dont have a radio anyway

id listen to my ipod but my headphones are so cheap that no matter how much i turn the volume down it still hurts my ears and plus i figured id be more tired if went to slep for 3 hours then if i pulled my own version of an all nighter

akms

so thats not my real problem

akms

caffeines gonna get me through the day any way so.........

Clough

Do you have a television?