Dear Saby2284,
I'm sorry to hear that you're having so many problems over such a long time with what I would call feeling despondent and hopeless rather than depression. I am reluctant to use "clinical" terms to describe feelings, states of mind, and problems in living because these labels often add to, not decrease, the pain of the individuals so labeled, at least in my experience and opinion. I'm glad you're reaching out for other possible alternatives to the ones you have had. You may find what you need that way.
I am not an analyst, but I have studied and applied the psychological theories of Carl Jung on my own, for over 25 years; after all, Jung and Freud did not have analysts to guide them through their journeys, and nor did I. Jung was one of the founding fathers of psychiatry, along with Freud, with whom he was a colleague for many years.
In any case, what I'm leading up to is that I would suggest that if you can afford it, for it can be quite pricey ($100 to over $200 per one-hour session), that you consult a Jungian analyst in your area. You can find out more about Jung by going to
www.cgjungpage.org and you can also find an analyst in your area, almost anywhere in the world, there.
Another option I would suggest is NLP or Neuro Linguistic Programming. They offer a much quicker fix. I'm torn between the two. I've tried Jung, but not NLP really. I suggest you look into them both and see which one (or both!) you prefer. You can put the name (in quotes, just as I have written it here), "Richard Bandler," who was the really amazing founder of NLP, into Google, and it will give you some sites where you can find a practitioner. This is, again, very pricey.
I would also like to say that some practitioners, especially psychiatrists, may counsel you to take antidepressents to help your condition. That is a decision for you to make with your counselor. However, I would advise against this, because these pills can have many bad side effects and although the manufacturers claim that they are non-addictive, they can be hard to get off of. There is another site you might want to take a look at:
www.mindfreedom.org There is a wealth of information there and alternatives.
Check with a naturopath, but Sam-e Mood Plus may be good too. I had another discussion with someone on this board about that. It seems that 100 mg. to 200 mg. dosages may be good and that one should take it on a full stomach. You may want to see what works best for you. I have trouble with despondency too, and plan to try this Sam-e. Best of luck, my dear, and I hope you will post again to let us know how you are progressing. At least looking into all those new things will give you something interesting to do, which may expand your horizons, and which may turn your mind away from feeling bad at least some of the time. Cheers!