i posted here before and people were so helpful... but things have just gotten even worse.
i just lost my full time job over really stupid drmatic stuff that i dont even want to get into. i really liked my job too and i did not deserve to lose it although it is for the best. i didn't get along with my manager among other things.
so i have been searching and searching for a new job and that is really hard on the cape. Especially one to replace my last job as in a job that pays the same as the last one. As i am doing that, i am biting my nails and pulling my hair wondering how the hell i am going to pay my rent at the end of the month.
i am still very very alone and losing my job has made it worse. i feel as though i am better off locked in my rom, you know? like it is a time i cant even have friends. i feel i need money to have friends. scared to use gas to visit friends.
the worse part is, after my first very long post... things started loking up. i was saving some money. i had set plans on moving to New York with my long distant/long time/only friend in march, with the ending of my current lease. i was paying my bills. things were fine...
now i dont even know if i can afford to stay here until march let alone move to NY in march. i am scared of going homeless again and also losing my beloved pet rats. i am just really really scared. i have gone through situations like this many many times before and i end up comething through. and it sucks... but i think this is different. a little worse because i have a bit more to lose.
i collect SS/Disability for my mental disabilities (major depression, bipolar, insomnia, anxiety etc) but it is just a little short of paying the bills/rent. i am really scared and i think the worse thing. the thing that absolutely makes this 100% ... is i have NO ONE
i dont have any one to call over with ice cream and just sit with me to watch a movie. no company. i am going through this alone. i have done all that i can and i am not sure how my rommates are dealing with this. they are older. the only thing i havent tried yet is the unemployment office. i think we have one here somewhere... do they help in these situations? is their some place that i can go to for help in finding a job aside from craigslist, want ads, and the news paper?
i just thought of something else actually. my past job was at a dogie daycare and i have mucho experience in sitting pets etc. i suppose i can put up an ad/web site advertising my services. i hardly think it will be successful.. from past experiences... but it is worth a shot.
i honestly dont think i deserve this but nice guys really do sem to finish last.
wow. i am so glad i got all this off my chest. thanks to anyone who read this. any advice would be wonderful... or even a 'good luck'. thanks
