Can anyone help me?.. (Severe depression)

angel11711 · Apr 21, 2012, 10:27 PM

Suicide is never the answer. My bestfriend who was 18 commited suicide last year over depression. You hurt more people then you could imagine. You need to go to a doctor or you can talk to a therapist.

InkWeaver · Apr 21, 2012, 10:30 PM

I don't have the means to do either. To be blunt, I'm at a point where I could care less about hurting others with my death. Yes I'm feeling selfish, but I want an out.

Wondergirl · Apr 21, 2012, 11:09 PM

Talk. I'm here and listening.

InkWeaver · Apr 22, 2012, 04:39 AM

I feel alone. Cliche and all I know, I've a mother and a father so in that sense I'm not alone, but where it counts?.. I'm no longer asked how my day went. I've walked by them pale, in a cold sweat from anxiety over my future, wandered upstairs and simply laid down until I fell asleep, and I don't get even the slightest of glances.

My chest feels tight from the emotional rampage going on in me. Looking at it it doesn't even seem like a real thing it's so intense.

I'm sort of losing my mind. Or feeling like I do. Genuine insanity does run in my family and it's usually caused by intense distress.

I'm scared, feeling alone, depressed to the point of exhaustion, and have no clue what to do.

Wondergirl · Apr 22, 2012, 08:57 AM

Is there a teacher you like and trust who would listen and help?

InkWeaver · Apr 22, 2012, 10:01 AM

Only one but I've no desire to make her a part of that side of my life.

Wondergirl · Apr 22, 2012, 10:29 AM

So then what if you refuse to get help that's right in front of you?

How about if I post the suicide/depression hotline number. Would you find a phone and call it and talk with someone?

We can do only so much via the Internet and with writing back and forth here. Of course, if I could and if I knew where you live and you asked me to, I would drive over to your house and sit down with you twice a week until we got this figured out*. But I can't do that.

*I'm a renegade (professional) counselor.

Fr_Chuck · Apr 22, 2012, 10:39 AM

So when you were 14 you had a girl friend that flirted with others, I am sorry but at 14 dating is just a leaning and yes at that point in your life and even now, you are learning about dating and relationships, some work, many don't, you date, you break up but you don't stop trying because the future ones may or may not last.

And the issue with your mom and step dad is theirs, it comes from choices both made, and they shared that time together.

You appear to want to feel sorry for yourself and not willing to talk about this in real life to real people.

A school counselor is not always a expert for depression, they are a start and they help you find professional help. You have a school teacher to talk with, but don't want to.
You don't want to call a 800 hot line where there are people, many who give of their own time to help others, but don't want to get the help.

So what do you want ?

Wondergirl · Apr 22, 2012, 10:39 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by InkWeaver

"Depressed, you pathetic excuse for a psychiatrist."

Actually, if you were my client, that is EXACTLY what I would want you to say to me. That would push me out of my comfort zone and make me reassess where you are coming from and what you need.

And I'm wondering why you don't have access to a phone.

Can anyone help me?.. (Severe depression)

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