about 3 years ago my parents split up and i was really close to my dad (i could talk to him about anything) then when my mom took us and moved an hour and a half away i was about 9 years old... i cried every night... in the past year i have been missing my old friends and where i grew up i break down everyday about my life and how i hate where i live and my friends(who don't seem true) i finally got over it for awhile but then early last summer i became so depressed that i cut my self and carved the word "LOVE" in my inside forearm when i was 12... my mom could see that i really missed my old friends and so she took me down to my old neighbourhood and stayed there with friends for about 2 weeks.. i had the best time...then when i got home i became depressed again and every night i break down for no particular reason... i won't even be thinking about my old friends ...i have also recently been wanting to do drugs again, drink everyday or start cutting myself... it's not like i can tell my friends about my issues that i am having or my parents i would be putting more stress on my parents... and my friends would look at it like i was attention seeking and jealous... i am 14 and i just started semester 2 and i decided that i would not skip school anymore because i want to do something with my life when i get older... but today i skipped out again ... i don't know what to do... i am so depressed lately....i can't talk to my mom about going to see a counsellor i want to hide it form everyone and forget about it after it's all sorted out... i don't want to be my mom's next "problem child" ...
anyone got any useful opinions??