I am a bad hypocritical person, aren't I?

Ok, well, the title says it all. Why? Good question, honestly I don't know. I say I'm hypocritical, because I tell my girlfriend I want her to cut back on the drinking (way back) and at first it goes pretty good, we don't drink fer a bit, but then a friend of hers f**** it up, and invites her to either drink at their house, and she'll REALLY want to go, or they aask her invite her to a bar, and she wants to go there either too. Like today, a friend of hers was invited to a bar, and she calls my girlfriend up because she didn't want to feel alone at the bar, when her co-workers are the ones who f***ing invited her! BUt then I cAVE in and then i;M like ok, fine, and cave in and give her five buck to get a couple drinks, and for some reason I am so worked up about this,. My hand f****** shake when I hold them up, so what do I do? OOOooOOOOOo I start pourin drinks for myself, and hittin shots left and right, I have no idea what number I'm at right now,. I stopped counting after six. SO I MENA cOM e on! I tell her I want her to cut back on drink ing and yet, I a don't even listen to my own edvice. I mean I should at least follow my own advie but I relly need to calm down, and that whjhat the drinks are doing, I get someowhat calm, as long as I don't stan.

As for being a bad person, I mean,m hypocrits SUCK! Which means I SUCK! I know I'm ramblimng but come on, I don't got money for a sychiatris, and I'm hopin I get SOMEONE who whontpost some kind of smart a** comment like "oooOOOooOO, then don't drink and go with her, DER!" well, I WOULD HAVE GONE, but she wanted it be a girls night out thing. But what eve, thanks for reading my endless rambling BULLS***! Sorry to waste two minutes of your life, that's all my life seem s to be when alcohol is intrerduced, a big WASTE!