Hi, im 14 years old, my entire life i was bullied and teased on because of my moms mental disability. I didn't have the normal childhood, because i was seperated from my parents a lot. My elementary years we're teriable, i lost my best friend because of his traggic death, and i was madly depressed and what was worst, people still teased me. Now i lock myself up in my room, i spend most of my day having suicidal thoughts, and then dealing with my dad and he yells and screams and i cry. I've been missing a lot of school lately because everyone hates me and i have no friends and no life, whenever i go to school, i get bullied and its worst because the highschool i go to are the old kids who use to bully me, and now the whole school knows about my moms mental disablilty. My dad just got a letter from my princeaple saying im failing all my classes, and is near of being exspelled from the semester. I can't handle anything, i have way to much suicidal thoughts, and i need help before i loose it and kill myself.

Greg Quinn

Hey! Your gonna be OK.

Greg Quinn

Hi there... I'm really glad you came on here to talk about this and I feel really bad for you. The people who tease you about your mom are not worth a single sad emotion except for you to feel sorry for their soulless hearts.
Losing someone is a really difficult thing too, and we have a bereavement section here on help desk where you can talk about that with others who also are battling greif & suicidal thoughts.
You need someone to talk to, and you have me... And you have the entire family of AMHD (Ask me help desk) to talk to anytime.
I have reached lows in my life that had me laying on the floor, and I've been there feeling hopeless and doomed. Thats not how it will stay if you make a decision to stop letting your history path your future. You have to figure out what you can do to make things better. Have you ever talked to your dad? It sounds like you really need some support.
You need to make some changes in your life! You need to get out and find something that makes you happy! Your 14, your just a kid. Depression is a mental virus, without treatment you will only get more depressed. What makes you happy? What is something you like to do? Is there someone you get along with and can talk to?
I'm really taken by your question. The way you worded it, the maturity & intellect are clearly there and that tells me you can pull out of this. Do you have any brothers or sisters? Lots of questions... Sorry.

DMA

Be careful here. OP must realize that they are not sick in the head. They have done nothing wrong, it's important to remember that.

Choux

Do you have any relatives who live far away who will accept you living with them? Make a fresh start with a loving family.

maliceluvsyou

I'm sorry that stupid people at school are teasing you. It really bothers me when people tease others, its a waste of time and those people who are usually teasing have something in their life that sux! Your life doesnt suck, your mom is ill and thats not something to be ashamed. Not that you are. I want you to try to keep your chin up cuz high school will end and you can still have friends, just not people like them. Dont let those people get to you. I know its hard, and yes you should try talking to your dad. Is he an understanding person? Having suicidal thoughts is a hard to talk about, especially to your parents. I know this......If you dad doesnt listen, come back on here to talk. Please dont act out your depressive thoughts. Everything will soon pass and things will get better. Even if you believe that or not. Just hang in there =)