I am 16 years old and I have been bulimic for almost one year. Currently I am 5 foot 8 and weigh about 135 lbs. For as long as I can remember I have been unsatisfied with my body. One day I become fed up with my over eating and decided to purge. I have not been able to stop my binging and purging since then. It's increasingly getting worse and I want to quit before I end up risking medical problems.
I have never confided in anyone about my problem until now. I know many of you will advise me to confide in my family and friends, but I cannot. I know I am strong enough to beat this. I just need some support from people who will not judge me. Please help me in any way you can.

Thanks for reading my message. If you need any other information about me or my problem, let me know.

I really urge you to confide in somebody and get treatment for this. This is a disease that can cause multiple serious health concerns... please, you have to tell somebody. If you really can't bring yourself to do so, maybe there are online forums that can be of help. I'll go take a look for some...

Bulimia - Face the Issue Forums
Here's one...

Eating Disorders Support | Eating Disorders Forums | Anorexia | Bulimia | Binge Eating Disorder | Compulsive Overeating | The Something Fishy Website on Eating Disorders

Here's another. You get the idea. Maybe somebody can help to guide you out of this nightmare.

Good luck...

I agree with ren. Go to the emergency room. Get there anyway you can. They can help you get the help you need. Good luck hon

Hun, you need counseling to get over this. Please do NOT go to the emergency room. The ER is for life threatening emergencies only. This is what ties up the doctors and the nurses from providing urgent care to those who need it.

Bulemia is an addiction of sorts. It will take counseling to get over it. You need to understand that most bulemics are of average size and this disease does not help one get smaller, but many times the bulemic will actually become overweight in time.

I understand you cannot go to anyone in your family about this, but is there a trusted adult you can talk to?

Thanks so much for the support

I've been bulimic most of my life since my teenage years. I was like you. Very unsatified with my body. I got down to 89 pounds at age 20. After I had my first son it got really bad. When I was pregnant with my second child (my daughter) I was in the process of getting over it again. Then I lost my fiancé to a horrible accident and I got really bad. When I had my daughter I almost died and so did my daughter. I finally got over it when I got remarried. He helped me. I couldn't confide in my parents over it although I think they had a pretty good idea. I tried to blame it on stomach aches but after a few years of it I'm sure they were catching on. The way I started trying to get back to normal is eating very small portions at a time. I didn't go to a doctor I did it on my own. Eat somewhere where there isn't a bathroom handy. Only eat a 1/3 of what you would normally eat. Do that a few times a day instead of eating a lot at once. Drink a lot of fluid. You don't want to get dehydrated. Its hard at first. This is and addictive habit. Eating small portions helps your stomach stretch back to normal because when your getting sick you stomach srinks. I have completely ruined my body for doing it over so many years. Now my stomach won't digust meat. I can't eat any kind of meat or I will still get sick. It really sucks. I love meat and its hard to watch people eat it to this day. I'm not going to lie sometimes I can't take it and I eat it even though it still makes me sick. I just love the taste of it. I wish you the best of luck. If you need someone to talk to about this I wouldn't mind trying to help you. Its hard but its possible. I hope I could help a little knowing your not alone.

There was group at my college for those of us with eating disorders. It was a safe and structured way to talk about it. The secrecy is an accelerator, it makes it worse. So, thanks for sharing with us.

When I finally quit, I felt so much better both mentally and physically. Don't let it be the norm for your life. I still hate things about my body. Even the most perfect women hate things about their bodies. Yeah, it sucks!

Bulimia is about "control." Purging is a lot like getting drunk, you are no longer responsible... Being responsible for yourself and your actions is the ultimate control. It's hard to see the difference at first. You're not wanting to damage your health, that's a good first step.