I have very low self-esteem and I have trouble being comfortable around my husband. I try not to let him see me undressed and I take care to look as good as possible when he is home. He says he is frustrated with my insecuritys, and he thinks that if he put me online he could boost my self-esteem. He said something about making home-made porn and posting it online for a possible profit.
I am against porn, if it was up to me he would not look at it. I am completely against the whole subject. It upsets me that he would be okay with other people seeing me that way. I don't think he has any respect for me and I don't know how to talk to him. I need to find a way to tell him how he is making me feel. In a way I feel like if I do it, it may make me more attractive to him. As it is now he looks at porn regularly before he tries anything with me, I would rather him look at me. I thought about letting him record things, but now I don't trust him not to post it somewhere.
I am angry and confused.
I just need some advice on what to do or say.