| If I try to defend myself, I think it will be taken as arguing, even though I don't understand how or what information was conflicting. I think it was just too much information. If you told me what didn't add up, I'd be happy to clarify.
I apologized to J_9, in my way. I didn't say "I'm sorry" though, so J_9, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to argue; I just wanted to make sure I understood all the facts. I was taught not to just accept what I am told as truth. It's not something personal (or likeable). I need to work on it..
I started out just asking for facts, but when I was given the chance to open up, the thread spun out of control. I can see now I am not ready to change. Don't expect to see another question from me regarding any of it for a long time, if ever.
I just wanted closure, so thank you for helping me understand the why. If you do want me to clear anything up, I'd prefer it be in a pm if that is allowed, only because I don't want things getting out of control again. |