Graveyard shift blues!!
You are not alone in the situation that you find yourself in. Let's look beyond the surface! People who work nights have different Bio-Clocks and cannot get off from work, go straight home and fall asleep! People who ordinarily work 9 to 5 jobs don't arrive home at 5:30 and hit the sack. They eat dinner, watch a little TV, maybe go to the store, etc. then go to bed maybe 4 or more hours later. Your scenario is very common and in fact is shared by spouses of musicians, firemen, policemen, security guards, and the miriad of other graveyard shift personel. It's not easy for you and that is clear! However, childbirth is something that is unique to women. Men do not carry and bring life into the world and therefore have greater mobility. I think in time you will have better opportunity as the child gets older and you find reliable and responsible child care to meet up with him after work and share some quality time together. If you decide to terminate you're relationship then try to find someone that best fits you're lifestyle and interests. Being sure of what you want in life is a valuable asset. Give it some more thought before you react! Be sure to find things to do that will enrich you're life as well. The more you stand on your own two feet the further you will be able to walk! Let us know what you think! Thanks!
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