Hi everyone, my story is so sad. If you can't take this, better not read this!
I really have a reason that I wanna die. Since when I was a lil boy, there were some rumors that I was gay. Don't kno how that came up, it may be my behavior or something... I've lived all my life being teased at school by all people. This last year I thought that everything changed, coz no one seemed to know these rumors at my new school (although there was a kid that really hated me, and I don't know why). But now that it's summer my friend started to behave a little weird. He was avoiding me, making me feel bad an lonely. He's the only good friend I have. So I went to his house to explain me everything. He started telling me that everyone thought I was gay and he didn't want to get the same "label" too. That hurted me soooo much that I went for a walk crying, and I couldn't stand the pain. I ended up here posting this question. My parents don't seem to know about it and I don't wanna lose my friend. Life is so unfair.... I was thinking that everything was at last ok, but now it seems that the whole world knew about it and the only one that didn't know it was me.
I guess I'll never be able to live a normal life... and don't say that I will, coz really, if they find something "gay" on me now, they will for ever...

METERRE

You are worth more than anyone thinks. The people trying to ruin your life are just trying to feed their ego from making your ego collapse. That must be because they don't really love themselves either so they feel the need to bring someone down and be at their level.
And i'm sure you know that doing that will never make them any better than you in any way, in fact you're the one who should be looking down on them.
I agree with the others that starting from zero is a good idea, sometimes i wish i could also go somewhere else and start all over, but for me it's not that easy. But that alone will not make the problem better by itself. There's the need for your input, you definitely need to overcome any insecurities and be at peace with yourself so that you can finally be at peace with everyone else. You gotta build up your self-esteem somehow, and then you'll be ready to move on. Otherwise i'm afraid that no matter where you go, everything will be how it used to.
And by experience i tell you it is definite that sometime, maybe even sooner than you think, but sometime in their lifetime they will get what they deserve. But just don't worry about that, it'll come, the less you think about it the sooner, and the next thing you know, they'll learn their lesson one way or another.
My advice is right now think about what you want to do in the near future that can possibly affect the way your life goes in the long term future. And i really hope it is a good effect.
Lighten up. Everything can and will change for your better.

gaia213

Life goes on