I was sexually, emotionally and physically abused a couple of years back... by a family member
I never talked about it... I tried writing, crying, screaming just to let the anger out... but now all I thikn about is ending this... I'm suffering a lot
I'm constantly feeling angry, weak and sometimes I can't even get out of bed... I've been in denial for a whole year

I can't seek professional help... I can't talk about it... and it kills me that I have to act as if nothing has ever happened and just smile it off.

Ana52408

Please dont committ suicide :/

That's really sad im so so so sorry but just dont kill yourself thats horrible, i just had a friend committ suicide yesterday and it was horrible, everyone is so hurt, im sure a lot a lot of people love you and if you do that they would feel destroyed and devastated

So please reconsider, suicide is not the answer!

mudweiser

PLEASE DON'T DO IT!

Here are some suicide hotline numbers:

Call 1-800-273-8255 : This number is for BOTH Canada and USA

United Kingdom : 08457 90 90 90

Ireland: 1850 60 90 90

It is confidential, not recorded and THEY will help you, they will NOT judge you!

Please be safe. Keep us posted I want to know how you are doing.

Sarah

Fr_Chuck

Of course you can get professional help. Why do you feel you can not.

Why not bring it out in the open, press charges against them, even if you don't win you may end up saving another family member from the same thing.

Warn everyone he knows about it,

Make it a mission i life to fight back

letmetellu

You said that you can not seek professional help ...and that you can't talk about it...Well look what you have done you have taken maybe the first step, you reached out to someone on this web site that you don't even know, and you did talk about it for a little bit. So maybe that is the answer for you, find someone on here that you can talk to, someone that you can tell all of the details to, someone that you can trust, someone that will listen and care about you. But this is also someone that you will never have to meet, and when you don't need them anymore you can just quit talking to them.
Their are many on here that would love to help you, some that have been through the same thing or something similar, maybe they are working themselves through it and they need your help to get them over the hurt. So don't do something that you will be sorry of, you never know how many people you will be hurting.

turtlegirl16

DONT DONT DONT COMMIT SUICIDE!!!! Think of all the people who you love and all the people who love you... what would they think? When i was in freshmen year, all I could think about was suicide, but when I talked to my mom about what I was feeling and all she said to me was, "If you commit suicide, you wont be in a better place, because suicide is just a one way ticket to HELL because the worst thing you can do is leave the people you love and the people who love you in that way."

You gotta talk to someone. If you start to cry, the person who you are talking to wont care about the tears, he/she will only care about keeping you ALIVE. You dont know how many hearts will be crushed. Death is a very important thing to reconsider in this situation....

mishelly3

listen please listen to all of these wonderful people here that are so concerned and would do anything to help you. So please listen because we care. Find someone can talk to it doesnt have to mom or dad but perferably and adult or older bro or sis, and confide in them. You have to be free of all this pain sweet heart and the only way to do it is to talk to someone you trust. This is bigger then you can handle you need to talk to someone that has dealt with this issue before.
No one needs to know its just you is were everyones conceren. So please talk to someone. Let those feelings go dont let them hold you hostage you probably felt that way for awhile now. time for some freedom... My prayers and thoughts are with you.. please write back and let us know how your doing...

0Anonymous0

yes I know suicide isn't the answer... it's just that sometimes I'm too weak to handle it... and I feel like everything is falling apart
that ill never be able to be myself again

thanks for the hotlines but they won't do any good and I can't get any professional help because I live in Egypt and it's not okay to talk about such stuff here...

"find someone on here that you can talk to, someone that you can tell all of the details to, someone that you can trust, someone that will listen and care about you. But this is also someone that you will never have to meet, and when you don't need them anymore you can just quit talking to them"
is that possible?

I'm doing a bit better... but I still get weak moments...

thank you all reading this made me feel much better...

mudweiser

Egypt Suicide Hotlines
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Befrienders Cairo
61 Al Zahara St
Jeddah St
Mohyaldeen, Muhandesen
CAIRO
Hotline: 762 1602/3
Hotline: 762 2381
Website: befrienderscairo.com
E-mail Helpline:

OR

Egypt~
7621602

Sarah

mudweiser

I'm here for you if you need to talk!

Sarah