well i found out that my mother was sick with breast cancer right after thanksgiving in 2005 and she wouldnt tell me over the phone, cause im the baby and mommas little baby, so some of her family was in from out of town visiting one of my aunts who never calls me unless my moms at my house, but this day she called me at work, and ask me to come to her house when i got off from work, so i freaked out, and said whats wrong with my mom my aunt replied nothing, we just want to see you, and so i called my husband and told him what was going on, and he said that if something was wrong with mom the boys would have called, i told him not if mom said not to, and then i went over to my aunts, to hear her cold voice tell me that my mom is sick with breast cancer and what am i going to do about this??? and she lived in ohio and i live in tx i begged her to come to tx day in and day out, and she would say i you know that this holiday im spending it with the boys, (she would spend every other holiday season in tx with me and then ohio with my brohters) and she wouldnt give in...and when i would ask her about her health she would tell me all the time that she was going to be okay, that the doctor told her she just had to have the breast removed and thats it, well finally i got her to come feb 15, 06 and she stayed at my aunts so we all could keep an eye on her round the clock, and i finally got to see her one night, and that was the night, that i knew i didnt have much time with my mother, my husband tried to tell me that i was over reacting, and my dog princess who loved my mom to death, even knew something was wrong instead of jumping and horse playing with her she just laid beside my mom on the couch, and put her head on my moms legs, and whinned...it was so sad, it was shortly after that my mom finally had a check up at a local hospital here in tx and they rushed her to their main hospital, my aunt never called any of my moms kids, to tell us she waited for us to call her, and when we did she was so hateful toward us, like this was our faults, so she told me when i called that she would not tell me where my mom was because i had no right to go there and upset her but i just got on the phone, me and my friends and starting calling around till we found her, she was in the hospital for 3 days before she passed away and my aunt was so cold to me at the hospital, and her daughter was like i cant believe that you knew your mom was sick and didnt do anything to help her, but i didnt know, i was the last one to know, my nieces knew before i did, and now i cant get passed the hurt that if only i could have got my mom here early, maybe it would have safed her life, i live with this day in and day out, that just maybe she would still be here with me in the flesh...what do i do when i feel like i could have done more? i miss her so much that it affects me daily, and i have attended a life after loss class, however it was to short, it was only 6 weeks only on thurs for 1 hour,
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