since my friend passed away about a year ago, i am always thinking about death.
mainly at night when i go to bed, i'll start to think about where ill go and if i really believe in god or not. Sometimes i cry myself to sleep because i cant bear the thought of dying suddenly and not being able to tell everyone i love them ahead of time.
Lately i freak out if my mom is not home 20 minutes after work- afraid she's been in a crash. I also call my little brother right after he gets out of school to make sure he's gotten home safely.I assumed things like that were normal, But one night i actually brought on a panic attack from crying so much about it.

This "problem" has actually begun to get so bad that my doctor is considering diagnosing me with OCD.

Fr_Chuck

I am glad you are getting medical help, yes when it effects your life it is a problem, If you have a religious faith, see if your pastor does any couseling also

While we should at times live our lives as if today was the last, we can't worry about it either, since we have no control over it, God only knows the time we have here, so we live it for him to the best of our ability.

dragnlady5

I agree with chuck. As far as the fear of dying and not being able to tell the ones close tp you how you feel.... Make sure to tell them everyday. Although i am sure they know you love them.

svatnsdal

We are all scared of dying, that's normal. It's good you are getting medical help. You are young, you have a very long life ahead! Just remember to always tell those you love, that you do love them.
Just always remember you are alive, and so are your family and friends. Enjoy your life to the fullest!

InTheArmsOfGod

Fear of dying is common and I can relate to what you are going through. Raised by a single parent all my life, all I do is worry about them. I have experienced the panic attacks and I have lost touch with reality it seems at times. All symptoms of OCD and like disorders. What's best for you and what was best for me was treatment. You can find spiritual treatment or you can find treatment in a tiny pill. The bottom line is you have to do this for you and for your well being. The worst thing to do is to stay dormant on this issue and not seek help. What you'll come to find in the long run is that you're not alone in this and you will indeed live a happier life as a result. In some cases it is discovered that the problem is hereditary as it was with my case. So it wasn't your fault to begin with. It's just the way it is.

ChristyLeeShawn

Amen and Amen I have had the same fears as well. It started getting bad around 30. Now I will soon be 33 and last year I watched my dad take his last breath. I watched him for over 30 hours, his body trying to say goodbye, it was aweful. So it can mess with you really bad at times. We trust in God and believe in HIM by FAITH. My favorite saying....
I WOULD RATHER LIVE MY LIFE AS IF THERE IS A GOD AND DIE TO FIND OUT THERE ISN'T, THAN TO LIVE MY LIFE AS IF THERE ISN'T A GOD AND DIE TO FIND OUT THERE IS.... GOD BLESS YOU HON....

KeepItSimpleStupid

ChristyLee:

I cried when I read your post. I also watch my father take his last breath shortly after the respirator was removed. Complications, (wearing a canola, but oxygen was turned off) from a thoreocenthecis (remove fluid from lung) caused him to lapse into a coma. He had non-Hodgekin's Lymphoma.

str33t punk

everyone here has around the sameanswer. about not saying you loev people, dont just tell them, show them. do everything you want to do before you die withthose that you love.

SkyGem

You are so right! It is in actually SHOWING a person that you Love them that they can truly feel an inner happiness that is indescribable. There are those who wait until the very last moment and then that moment comes and they find that they were unable to tell a person that they Loved them and of course, by then it is too late. That is a great burden to carry with you. There is no excuse not to go to the person you Love and tell them outright. Some people have a problem with this, unfortunately, but do not seem to realize that the problem is going to get far worse after the person is gone and you lose a great opportunity to approach them and let them know of your Love. There Is No Time Like the Present! Do it Now. It takes just a moment to tell someone you Love them, and to make them feel wanted and Loved is a tonic for anyone who has feelings. Do not procrastinate. You don't know if tomorrow will be too late to tell them what you want to tell them today!

blackblue

Sounds a lot like me! (I have OCD, anxiety disorder and panic attack disorder) One of my main worries is a loved one dying.It's actually made me reconsider how many children I want to have, which is disappointing.

Just know that there is NOTHING you can do about it.Death is completely out of your control.

I think that life would be a lot easier if the "veil" from earth and the other side was thinner.That way we get to see our loved ones and know that they are so much better off in a place where there is no harm than us in a world full of it.

Don't make your life one anxious ball of worries.I have wasted sooo much time doing that and I regret it.Seek spiritual enlightenment and that may calm your worries.It has for me.