Alright, I know you all are getting sick of my story but I really would like some advice because I keep getting myself in too deep.
For those of you who dont know, there is this guy in almost all my classes and I really like him. He had been trying to be with me for a whole year and maybe more and when I gave him the attention he longed for her moved on to my friend. I tried ignoring them, not thinking about them, but having them 24/7 in my face was NOT helping at all. After being close to my friend he left her, and then came back to me. Of course, I was weak, and accepted him back happily. And today...
The last period was a free period, my friend and I were talking (the same girl, yeah I'm totally dumb for staying her friend, I know). He was sitting on a chair next to us and trying to annoy us and make loud and crazy sounds to interrupt us while talking. Then the teacher called on me and I went to the front of the room to help her out. Just as I turned around I saw him coming close to my friend, leaning on the desk getting really close, arm on her shoulder, leaning his face close to hers and flirting, as if he was waiting for me to leave!! As if I was just a pain. Exactly like he was using me to get to my friend, like SO many told me but I was too dumb to respond to the truth because I liked him. I just stood up and walked a couple of feet, looked back and he was already hitting on her. My "friend" was of course very pleased.
I just felt heartbroken. I couldnt control the look in my eyes when he looked at me after that. I started talking with another friend so I wouldnt go back to them. I felt like I was an intruder all along, like he was counting the minutes till I leave,
I dont want to go to school tomorrow, call me a caward, but I cant stand the pain. There is a hole in my chest, and I dont think it will ever come whole again. I have been through alot in my life, and realized it only has pain and suffering to offer.
What do I do? Any advice? Am I wrong? I am caring, loving, funny, sweet, kind, honest, respectful, modest, and many people tell me I'm beautiful, but now whenever I look in the mirror I see the ugliest person looking back at me. Why would he go to her? When did people chose snobs on sweeties?
All I know now is that I feel a pain I have tried for so long not to feel. Whenever I move on in life I find myself in a bigger hole than the one before. As I said, I realize life only has pain and suffering to offer...... I give up

N0help4u

It sounds to me like he is immature and has no idea what he wants and now maybe he isn't interested in either one of you but has found he can play a game with your emotions.
He is still in some do I want bubblegum or oreo flavored ice cream. Life isn't like that and until he can grow up and make real decisions I say------
Get over him.

cal823

yer get ova him silent i know its hard but its seems he is not yet on your level.
i know its hard to feel like that, but the feelings to end, and you do get over them, and you will be stronger afterwards, and even closer to the real person you are meant to be with.

Silent Breeze

How, how do I get over him?? How do I heal the wound in my heart? I tried not to think of them, as I said, but they are always in my face.
Do I stick with my friend... I think she is a backstabber because she started flirting with him before he was interested in her... that's when he started seeing her as more than nothing. He never used to care for her, why now?

Silent Breeze

Thanks for understanding how I feel. My question stands, How? How do I get over him? How do I stop hurting? How do I stop thinking of him? How can I move on?

cal823

im sorry but i dont know. it takes me a long time to get over people, alot of the time i dont get over them till i find someone new.
just try, yes you are hurt, but dont let it get in the way of your life. you can do anything that you set your mind to, and you will find someone new. Just look forward to a brighter future and your future lover.

jasmine_rezzag

I was once hurt by someone, I was really heart broken, but he does not care at all, and be with another girl in short time, and that girl does not care whom he flirts with! Sounds strange, but that is true. He hurted me in any way he can. It was a hard time for me, but I keep telling myself he will have what he deserve, what he did will will return back to him! And I keep working, keep busy, find something to do…… never let myself be too free! Focus on other things. For something, we can not change, but we can make us a better life! Life is still on even without him or me! Time will tell everything, just try to be happy! Pay more attention to people whom you should!