Hello.
Iīm nineteen year old boy and broke up with my girlfriend about a month ago and just canīt stop thinking about her. The reason why we broke up was that I had to leave the island i lived on to the mainland, because of university. At first we thought that we could not stay together because of the distance, but we both realized that we love each other and donīt want to move on. After few months we had pretty serious fights and she found a new guy she liked and told me that she did not love me anymore. To be honest my feelings were also beginning to fade away, hope this is the right expression. After she told me that she does not love me anymore my world collapsed completely. I felt like a cadaver and could not concentrate on anything. Just laid and cried for days. After a week I started going out a lot. Found two wonderful girls who like me lot. One who is very beautiful and obsessed with my appearance and another. I even slept with the other one. I hate myself for doing that, because I like the girl as a friend, but iīm not attracted to her. I feel very good just talking to her, but she wants more
. To be honest I find myself doing things I hate a lot lately. At first I ignored my old girlfriend and was beginning to feel good sometimes already, yes I feel like all the time. But then, genius as I am, I called her and started to communicate with her again, because she wanted to be friends. I dreamed that she would start to love me again, I know I was and am wrong, but just canīt get those stupid thoughts out of my head. Now on holidays Iīm back on the island and thinking of her all the time. What is she doing, who is she with etc. I have seen her three times and talked to her. Every time I realize that I donīt like her as much I think I do or I just want to think that way. I called her several times just to know who is she with and what is she doing, pretty psychic in my opinion, but I just canīt control myself. I even told her that I want to hang out with her new friends, but i know I donīt, because they arenīt the sharpest pencils in the box and I hate communicating with unintelligent people. The new guy she likes has her own girlfriend and does not want my ex. He also is pretty dumb and I think my ego was bruised pretty badly. Even though I hate I even have an ego. Makes me wanna puke sometimes. I just canīt get back on the track. Can anyone give good advice?
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