ok, my story is pretty long.but here goes. im 16 and teh guy i love..well the guy i used to go out with is 21. now we met each other and well it was gud. he was with his gf but they never spoke they were basically non existent...however after 3 months of goin out with him he told me he had not broken up with her.which by then i thought he did. i was understnading and stuff and said ok. n e way. things were ok they were gud. but i knew he sumwhat styul had feelings for his ex.

n e way while we were goin out we got realli close then we started loving each other. as in fo real. but i gues even tho everyone thinks im pretty, i didnt (at the time) and he's pretty handsome too..so i kept thinkng i never luked gud enuff to b with him.so out of the blue on e day i decided to break up with him. not realli explaining y. but then that same evening i apologised adn we got bak to gether. he said he was realli hurt tho. i mean he showed me he luved me cause his mother kept sayin how he kept tlkin about me and he does BMXin' and he spray painted ma name all over his stunt ride. and stuff like that. n e way we got bak together. but then liek 2 weeks later i broke up with him again..i dont even rememebr y. and to b honest we were fine. then like i thought it was ok but then about 3 weeks later i found out he cheated one me with a girl ..he was with ehr for like 1 week. wen i asked him he denyed it but hten..he finally siad it was becuase i made him unsure..but i styl cant forgive him for cheating on me. eventually we broke up again..i did the breaking up. he creid and stuf..but i ignored it. then i duno like 1 onth later we got bak together.. cause he begged ..he loves me and everone tells me he does..but honestly to me ..he flirts alot..but he syas its my mind and that im being paranoid...

well long and short of it is that 1 month later i styl kept thinkin about he cheated on me and he said i onli did it cause i felt emotionally hurt..with me breakin up with him fo no reason adn he loves me alot..welln now we came to a connclusionthat we need to get our heads together...i elised i kinda became paranoid wen i saw him in a room with one of my gf's the other day ..i thought they were goin to kiss..but..later i realised it was my mind..
i keep thinking he's jsut saying he loves me but he doesnt..
pple keep saying if he didnt love me..he wudnt call me everyday to tel me he loves me(which he styl does byt he wya)..and hes a pretty gud luking guy..but i am studying ot b a doctor..and it never came up but im thinkin mabey he jsut wants my money wen i become a doctor...

n e way i told h him to come out of my life a while ago..and he keeps saying
he doesnt kno wats wrong with me cuase he lvoes me..but styl .

o and one o the times we broke up..wihtin a space of 3 days..he had sex with a girl..kinda like a fling..and im wondering if u love someone ..wud u do that....i dunno..i need help ....
he syas he loves me..he styl says it..
but..i dont kno..isit me..plus he spoke about a futur togethet..he alwyas does ..ad he does crazy things fo me.but im thinking he's just trying tto prove a point

and honestyl tho my mind sying that i should just forget about him..a small voice saying it s meant to b..but mabey im being stupid..he says he's been with lots o girls..but he knows we r meant to b..and despite the things ive done he keeps saying all the bad and all the ogg ...he's willing to try..but wat if he's trying ot prove a point

i duno.. but wen i thnk about our relationship i onli think about the bad..i barely rememebr it being gud..tho he sees it as being gud..

what should i do..

ceriphante

from a guy perspective..
first thing to do is never talk to him again.. he is a disrespectful loser even if he acts otherwise.. his behaviour towards you was quite plainly disrespectful and you let him get away it, so deep down he's probably laughing at you behind your back, if you ever question him on this he will probably be quite angry and silly about it..

a few things I learnt in my time;
never let someone make you have 2nd place, be either first or unavailable to them,
don't let someone cheat on you you deserve better,
and yeah someone that already has a partner trying to hookup with you thats not love thats them using two people for whatever their reasons are..

good luck, hope this was a useful insight for you