I broke up with him, why am I so upset?
Asked Jan 14, 2009, 07:31 AM
I recently broke up with my b/f, we were going out for just over a year. However, the last couple of months I have been waiting to get the nerve up to break up with him because I just was not happy anymore. He is a great guy and treats me better than anyone ever has, but there are faults as well. He would do anything for me, but I would have to tell him exactly what to do, when to do it, and how to do it... like you would a child, even common sense stuff. That used to aggrevate me to no end and caused a lot of tension and suddenly, a lot of the small things started to become big things. I am very independent and have been on my own for the past 10 years, relying on no one other than me. He, on the other hand, has never been on his own and despite him saying that he hasn't been taken care of, has never had to do live on his own. I am a couple of years older than him and am done school and in my career, he is only just starting school and has another 6 months left and then has to find a job. Im already tired of not being able to do anything with him without me having to pay for it and feel like I'll be waiting a while. I feel bad for thinking like this because it wasn't that long ago when I was in school and not making much money, but I feel like I have that part of my life over with and don't want to deal with it anymore. Plus, there's not guarantee he'll get a job right away, then what? He is in school but he doesn't show much initiative. I do not want someone I have to take care of. We have no sex life anymore because I just do not want to in any way, shape, or form.
But since we broke up Ive been depressed, lonely, hurt, and alone. I have lots of friends and family but he was the one always there with me. Should I get back with him and hope for the best? What if I let him go and end up with a jerk, then I let a good one go, there's not many of them left? Im so confused?