Dude! You definitely need to start reading more of the bible. Do you have one? Cose if not get one! In it you will discover that God says vengeance is his to repay, not humans.
(Rom 12:17-19) "Return evil for evil to no one. Provide fine things in the sight of all men. If possible, as far as it depends on you, be peaceable with all men. Do NOT avenge yourselves beloved, but yield place to the wrath, for it is written, 'Vengeance is mine, I will repay' says the true God."
Only God's kingdom can bring about everlasting peace on this earth which is ruled by his son Jesus. Those that want to live according to God's way will enjoy these changes. (Psa 37:11)
Who is it that personifies evil? Satan or God? Who is it that personifies love? Satan or God? Who do you want to imitate?
It's awesome that you have such a strong love for God, so why not read into what it is he really wants of us, especially in this time of the end? It's all there, but you need genuine prayers to ask Him for guidance. He'll help you if you really want it.