Just so I am clear, I was NOT judging you. I know of several people that incorporate church and religion into thier lives just for their kids, or just for the security of having a group of people that are trustworthy in their minds. These people only go to church for social reasons. I don't think that is wrong. It is their choice. I just to didn't want to tell you to pray about it and your response be... "if I don't have a religion how do i decide who to pray to"
So NO I wasn't saying that you are a bad person or that the way you worded it was wrong. I have ran into many people that want religion in their lives but they don't want religion to control or run their lives. I do not go to church. I pray at home. I found churches to be uninterested like you said and extremely corrupted. SO I refuse to go to ANY. You make your own choices. You will make your own relationship with God and will decide on your own what feels right and what feels like enough for you
Good luck to you. I apologize for giving the impression that I was belittling you. I just took what you said at face value and explained each choice.