My heart is shattered. My 30 year old son said he never wants to see or talk to me again. He has yelled and cursed at me to the top of his lungs telling me how horrible I am as a mother and a grandmother. He was always emotional as a child. In the last five years he has been horrible to me. When I asked why, he tells me to "Shut the F*** up', so I am afraid, he is unapproachable. He has NEVER been one to come over and visit. His sisters do with their children. Yes I have been to his home, but not enough , he says. He has joint custody of his children ( my grandchildren ) so I did not have them as often as my daughters children. He never calls only when he needs money, though I have never said anything to him about that. He met a nice woman with a child and plans to marry her in August of this year. I am so heartbroken and depressed, I can't sleep, I cry all the time. My first son Died of S.I.D.S, and this son was a blessing and I love him so much. He has accused me of knowing of some very horrible things that supposedly went on when he was growing up. My daughters do not believe they are true, but they love me and their brother. I am beside myself with grief, it's as if he has died like my first son did. I have tried to find ways of letting him know how much I love him and the kids and his wife to be, but my calls and emails fall on deaf ear.
I don't know if I can go on. It hurts too much, it hurts through my heart and soul. If there were any truth to what he has accused me of, I would confess and apologize and do whatever I had to do for my son. What is a mother to do? I can't function and I can't go on this way.