Hi my names johny im 13 years old most of you probably wont listen to my little life story but ill try and hope for some help.
well i started off life as a normal happy baby went to primary school, i was figting alot but i had quite alot of freinds, but i hated school so i changed in year 4 and went to another school i didnt like it much but i prefered it to the other school, and yeah i had enough freinds there too but i hardly ever went out with my freinds from the second school i went to only the first, i went out almost every day and enjoyed it alot then i kept geting excluded and eventually got expelled for bad behaviour in year 6 ( i have ADHD by the way ) and yeah i still had contact with all my freinds in year 7 and it got less and less contact, so i was hanging around with different people from like different places i met them and stuff i met a little group of freinds from my second school and i met this other person through other freinds and 1 guy through msn kinda but i was at an internet cafe1 day he was there so i hugn around with himf or a bit
so yeah i had my fair share of freinds and going out quite a lot but up to year 8 i had less and less contact 1 of my best freinds i kinda used to start on him for no reason but im changed now im on medication and stuff, im trying to get in contact with him but i never can, now its got to the point i basicly have 1 single freind who i never hardly see he sometimes stays round my house like 1nce a month thats it im so lonely and depressed and bored i just want to die ive took pills and slit my wrists before but nothing major oh and by the way coz i got excluded im not at a normal school im at a school for boys who have been expelled and theres like 3 ppl in ma class im mates with most people in the school but i dont go out with any of them yet ill probly try tho well also i do have another couple of freinds but i rarley see them, So what should i do, i cant cope no more.....and im not like a major geek im a normal funny ( sometimes) person
im english btw

( sorry if none of that made sence to you and bad puncuallity) thanks and please please take the time to read this and reply

thank you

Hephzibah_89

I can empathise greatly with you, I'm 17 and (you can read my questions) have felt similar to how you appear to. I know it appears hopeless, and what I can say to you will probably infuriate you as it did me, but you have to trust that this does pass.

Is there anyone you can talk to about this? It know it can be incredibly difficult, not to mention painful bearing personal and private details about your life to what is essentially a stranger, but their objective position may offer them some insight into how to help.

I hope you begin to feel better soon, and please remember that there are people out there willing and able to help.

Good luck.

Johny93

Thanks alot for your comment i really appriciate it and yes my mum knows ive told her and i cry on her shoulder alot she promised me my life would be better but its most likely to be when i go to colledge and meet new people, but im crying every day i just duno what to do for the time being lol

well thanks alot for comment
bye

J_9

Honey, you are 13, hormones are raging!! This happens to many many people at this age.

The teen years are filled with trials an tribulations. You see, suicide is permanent. It is forever. No way to change your mind. No do overs.

Think very hard about, let's say, if you came home from school and found your Mom dead. How would you feel? Now, turn that around. Would you want your Mom to feel like that if she came home from work and found you dead?

Death is permanent. I recently lost my father, due to health issues, I would LOVE to have him back, but I understand he was sick and he is in peace.

He had no choice. But you do. You have a choice in how you want to live your life. You have a future to look forward to. Yes, it may seem bleak right now, but there is a beautiful future waiting for you.

Hephzibah_89

No worries -

How about asking to speak to a counselor, does your school have one? Speaking to someone on a regular basis, outside of your family may be of some help...and if it is really horrendous, maybe go and see your GP and they could advise you on a course of action - possible therapy?

Please don't think you have to wait until college, although this may be true, is it possible that there are local clubs you could join to make more friends? are you into sports, reading, art, drama, singing? I know it can be hard to even consider putting yourself out there, but if you feel up to it, this could be a way of boosting confidence and making new friends.

Good luck.

denilah

Hi Johny,

I was doing some research through google and found your 'question'. I know it's been over a year since you posted, but I just wanted to know if you are ok?
I'm glad that people wrote back to you, and they are right, there are people out hear who can help, just by listening. Sometimes a problem shared is a problem halved. Like, you don't keep it all in your head anymore. Jeeps, guess what I do for a living...yup, I listen to kids.
The reason I was searching google was because I needed some help for a kid that I know. Your question and answer has helped me today. It has helped me be able to help another kid. I just want to say thanks.

Jen