i want to die to be with my brother

raykia06 · Mar 14, 2008, 07:37 AM

my younger brother was killed 2 days ago. He just turned 20. i feel like its my fault because i was so busy with my life that i didnt take the time to be his big brother. if so, he wouldnt of had to walk home at night and get gunned down. he could have called me and i would have came for him. he didnt even have my number or know where i lived at. im never going to get over the guilt i feel. now he's all alone and im still living. my mind know i have to keep living because he would want that, but my heart doesnt want him to be alone anymore. If i was to kill myself, he would have someone with him and thats what i want. i need to be with him. im so sorry i wasnt there for him and now hes gone. i need to tell him im sorry and for him to forgive me inorder to move forward, but the only way for this to happen is to go where he's at. i dont know what to do. i need help

Claree123 · Jul 11, 2008, 09:33 PM

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Originally Posted by raykia06

my younger brother was killed 2 days ago. He just turned 20. i feel like its my fault because i was so busy with my life that i didnt take the time to be his big brother. if so, he wouldnt of had to walk home at night and get gunned down. he could have called me and i would have came for him. he didnt even have my number or know where i lived at. im never going to get over the guilt i feel. now he's all alone and im still living. my mind know i have to keep living because he would want that, but my heart doesnt want him to be alone anymore. If i was to kill myself, he would have someone with him and thats what i want. i need to be with him. im so sorry i wasnt there for him and now hes gone. i need to tell him im sorry and for him to forgive me inorder to move forward, but the only way for this to happen is to go where he's at. i dont know what to do. i need help

My boyfriend commit suicide a little over a month ago and I had broke up with him day before. I carry so much guilt. I want the same thing, I want to be with him all the time, just to see him and be with him, but that would be selfish of me.

Your brother is not alone and you will be with him again one day. You should not blame yourself for his death because it is not your fault.

If you want to tell him you are sorry, all you have to do is talk to him and he can hear you. He is with you. Always.

I am so sorry for your loss.



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