| martin died feb 23 i died feb 23 my soulmate my life my smile was taken from me feb 23 after 3 weeks in intensive care . he waited for me i got goodbye but it dosent make it easier. he was 45 he would have been 46 4 days after he died . people say times a healer but at the moment i find every day gets harder and lonlier still think hes key will go in the door then it gets real again i cry constantly my eyes are dead dont know how i still function i,m 35 and cant see any recovery i seen so much trauma and grief in intensive care i get images when i close my eyes . i got a son whos 4 and only just started talking about martin and 2 daughters aged 11 and 18 . i look at couples and think why my martin why never knew grief i do now wouldnt wish these shoes on anyone xheartbroken x |