My dad committed suicide

GoldenL · Jul 18, 2012, 04:08 PM

My dad did the same in apil, just before all my gcse exams, i didnt know what to do, and i still dont. im not one of those people who like to talk about things normally, and now im stuck. im angry, upset, hurt and confussed.

kygirl91 · Aug 21, 2012, 01:45 AM

My dad also committed suicide on march 20, 2012. I was 20 at the time. I have no adivce for you. I still think about it everyday. I find myself crying everyday. I went to counsling twice and found that it was unnecessary because here I am pouring my heart out to this stranger who had no idea who my dad was or who I am and yet theyre trying to help? If i can leave you with anything its that time does help. But when something like this happens, time is something that goes by very, very slowly. I feel like it all happened yesterday yet 5 months have passes. Its something that I feel like you will never "get over" but it is something, after years have passed, you will be able to come to terms with and maybe even forgive your dad. I have yet to forgive mine. But I know after time and after I no longer cry myself to sleep, I'll be able to say, dad I forgive you.

kittytemple · Nov 4, 2012, 05:11 PM

Hi there, this happened to me when I was 14! And like you golden L just before my GCSEs! My heart goes out to you both, I am 38 now and it still hurts. When my dad first killed himself I hated him! because I didnt understand. I didnt realise he was ill, but he was! My dad was a drunk, I grew up with him constantley drunk! I loved him, but didnt understand him! I work for a mental health trust now and I see a totally different perspective! He was mentally ill, and did not get the help! He wasnt just selfish!! as I first though! I wish I could have reached out to him!

claireabella84 · Nov 13, 2012, 11:32 AM

My Dad hung himself in January, also left me and my Mam and sister, it is awful, I know just exactly what you are going through so well. Look after each other and remember your Dad the way he was. That's what I do. Talk to people about it and don't bottle it up. Lots of love xx

Cassofrass · Dec 23, 2012, 08:14 AM

My Dad killed himself a week ago. I just read that helpguide article, and it stirred up a lot of feelings of 'if only'. If only I had stayed up and chatted with him when he couldn't sleep, if only I had told him how much I loved him no matter how worthless he might have seemed to himself, if only I had reached out more. Many people are incredible at concealing their true emotions, and some people never want to or will let themselves believe that the one who is obviously in so much pain would ever actually DO such a thing. I'm still in shock. It's like a joke with no punch line, or an explosion. I can only hope that this gets easier with time. My heart goes out to all of you who have had to suffer the loss of someone close to you. May you heal a little everyday, and show compassion and unadulterated love to those still around you.

claireabella84 · Dec 26, 2012, 01:56 AM

I also read that article, then I wish I hadn't as unfortunatly after it has been done their is nothing you can do. No point thinking about what if's. Though I do too. I'm so sorry for this to happen to you, just before christmas too, atleast I've had the best part of a year for it to sink in a little. Still hasn't some days. He was such a miss yesterday, such a miss. Reading all your stories really helps me as some days I feel so alone. We all just need to be there for the people we love. I do believe, in time it won't be the first thing we think of morning, noon and night x

jamie555 · Apr 18, 2013, 06:36 PM

my dad killed himself on 02-03-2013 the last time i spoke 2 him he put the fone down on me i found out that he burst into tears afterwards bcos he didnt want me to see him upset. i think i could of done more for my dad. my mind is quite numb but i can just burst into tears at any time i feal like no1 understands and people dnt think its that bad.

AlyssaNicole911 · Apr 20, 2013, 06:08 AM

My dad committed suicide 3 years ago. He left me, my mom, brother and sister all here. My sister was only 13, I was 10, and my brother was 8. He left us at the worst possible time too, we were losing our house at the time and my grandfather had just passed away. It is his birthday today, so I do know what you are going through, and I'm not saying time heals all wounds, because I have learned that that is not true at all, but it does get some what better.

My dad committed suicide

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