I had a boyfriend on/off for five years who killed himself a week ago. We argued a lot, and even though I didn't know he was actually planning on doing it, I thought it was just another fight, he admitted to pushing me away because he didn't want to live and said I was the only thing keeping him alive, but I never believed him I never thought it was possible I could lose him forever like this. Every time we said it was over and argued, he'd show up 10 times sweeter than ever the next day. I loved him, with all my heart. I'm 19 years old, he was 18, and he was the only boy I ever gave the time of day. I never even kissed another guy. We talked every single day, and now he's gone and I can't cope. So far movies seem to be the only thing that can even come close to having someone to relate to. I've watched Keith and Ps I love you. Both seem pretty fitting. I was wondering if anyone would have any advice or any other movie tips because I could really use some help right now. Any help. Please...