ladybugxx
May 18, 2012, 05:41 AM
I don't really know how to write this question but I want advice so here goes.
I've been with my partner seven years and he used to beat me lie and I think cheat, but it stop when I had my son. He went to prison though out my pregnancies and when he got out he told me might have child by another woman and shattered my heart into pieces and he blames me for this other child. And he must have been with me at time of conception even thou he denies it. I just can't get over this. He had done so much to me I just can't get things out of my head, and all we do are arguing.
He says I'm fat when I'm a size 6 and a nasty ***** and other vulgar things just because I hate his mother for attacking me because I didn't want to go home with him. The whole family has in fact and when I hit them back I'm the bad person. And feel like I have to stay with him for my son. As when I'm not with him I can see my son misses him and it hurts me to see my 2 year old son upset.
I've just totally had enough of his whole family and him. I feel like I've made this relationship bad as I can't not forgive and forget him for what he had put me through, I make him angry all time he says and depressed. Maybe it is my fault I just don't know anymore. If I could just give up my home and leave my area for good I would. But I've tried and no hope. My life is just one big mess. I just want to move away for good with my son and forget this bad chapter in my life
I've been with my partner seven years and he used to beat me lie and I think cheat, but it stop when I had my son. He went to prison though out my pregnancies and when he got out he told me might have child by another woman and shattered my heart into pieces and he blames me for this other child. And he must have been with me at time of conception even thou he denies it. I just can't get over this. He had done so much to me I just can't get things out of my head, and all we do are arguing.
He says I'm fat when I'm a size 6 and a nasty ***** and other vulgar things just because I hate his mother for attacking me because I didn't want to go home with him. The whole family has in fact and when I hit them back I'm the bad person. And feel like I have to stay with him for my son. As when I'm not with him I can see my son misses him and it hurts me to see my 2 year old son upset.
I've just totally had enough of his whole family and him. I feel like I've made this relationship bad as I can't not forgive and forget him for what he had put me through, I make him angry all time he says and depressed. Maybe it is my fault I just don't know anymore. If I could just give up my home and leave my area for good I would. But I've tried and no hope. My life is just one big mess. I just want to move away for good with my son and forget this bad chapter in my life