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vhua1
May 14, 2012, 02:22 AM
Last week I started reminiscing while looking through my high school yearbook. Flipping through the pages, I caught sight of photo of a girl that I was acquainted with in Ceramics class. She hardly knew English, so a close friend of hers (who had happened to be in my Spanish classes) had me translate the instructions for her. We didn’t really get that close though. Two reasons: my Spanish wasn’t all that great so I couldn’t understand what she said that well and I had a girlfriend then. But I remember now, once in a while, we would share those intimate glances and she would come by and compliment my ceramics projects. I’m in college right now and single. Since my breakup, I’ve been sort of an independent loner and have become emotionally unavailable. To compensate, I sort of used my college studies as a tonic to cope for the loneliness. But lately, the urge to share a life with someone special has gotten the better of me, especially after what had happened last week. I got to talk to her friend, and found out that she’s in ELD class in which my former Spanish teacher was teaching. Friday I decided to go visit my teacher, and the moment I walked in, I met the girl’s eyes and she immediately told a group of classmates next to her that I was in her ceramics class. I know it doesn’t imply that she has feelings for me, but it has been two years since we last met. Later I found out that she will be moving back to Mexico with her family after graduation. I’ve talked to a few old friends about it, but the only suggestion they gave me was to forget her and move on. There’s more fish in the sea. But I can’t seem to get my mind off her. I’ve met numerous college girls on campus, but none have sparked the intensity of feelings that I have for her. Apart from interests, she seems to share the same core values as me. At the same time though, I’ve been also having these ambivalent feelings. I have one more month to get to know her more intimately, but at the same time, I can only meet her during the weekends because I’m so preoccupied with my college studies. But here’s the main problem: if there is the probability we might fall madly for one another, and then she has to move back to Mexico. My question is: What’s my best approach?