I love my boyfriend a lot more than i had originally planned to when I got into a relationship with him almost 4 years ago! I love him so much at this point in life that I literally can not think about being without him for even a single day!

He hurts me a lot! He wasn't like this at the beginning 3 years of our relationship! He talks about girls for fun! I told him repeatedly that it hurts me and so he has stopped! He never calls me, never texts me, I always do! If you think I'm clingy....no i am not! Sometimes he ignores me ALL DAY and I say nothing! And when I finally see him at the end of the day I smile and laugh with him! I take care not to spoil his mood and the moment we are having!

There's a lot more guys out there who wants me. But I feel like if i lose him, I will slowly die! I have a very weak cardiac muscle and I can't take stress! He knows it , and it never bothers him! He says he loves me, and at times I really feel his love for me....and that's why I'm still with him! I know if he leaves me, I wont EVER get the same feelings with anyone else again! I am 100% sure about it as I have given it a long thought for 4 days continually!

I try to show him what he means to me, I take care of him more than his mom, I don't shout or blame him when he makes huge mistakes, rather I try to show him mistakes happen and he is still an awesome person! That's the kind of girl I have become! My friends say it is because I have lost my self confidence! Now I don't know what to think and do about it and I really need help!

Please give me some advice as to what I should do now, and what I can do to feel happy despite the sadness that's engulfing me. Please help!

Stop being a love slave, and people pleaser, and frankly you are over doing the girlfriend bit. Way over doing it, and need a lot of other things in your life besides him.