I'm adopted I was in foster care first and I have more of a connection to them then I do to my adoptive parents

Why are you scared? Of course you are use to foster parents, but the adoptive parents would not have adopted you if they did not want you. Out of every child they picked you.

How long have you been with your adoptive parents?

15 years they adopted me because they could have children of their own but then at the gas of six my adoptive parents had a child and then tow years later another.After that I was said of to the side and I have felt unwanted in the family for a long time. I feel like I'm an understudy in the family I don't get a lot of attention.

I am sorry you sound very much like the oldest of a larger family, adopted or not, often the oldest feels the youngest get most of the attention. The funny thing is that often the younger ones feel that the oldest gets most of the attention.

But you said "scared" not neglicted, is there a reason to be scared or is it you don't get as much attention as you want.

No I get scared of them I'm mexican and they are german they are really stricked you never know what mood my adopted mom is when I told my case manager at school about this he said he would have to have a meeting with freaked me out.after school I don't want to go home I shake all the way home afraid my mom will yell at me because I did something. I'm in special ed and have to regular classes wich is hard my adoptive mom wants me to have all a's with is impossible with my learning disability and she just won't let me hang out with friends I have no privacy anymore . I can't even go ask them questions anymore sitting at the table with the family is a hard thing for me to do. Every step I make I feel as if I'm gong to be yield at for taking a step foreword.