Sep 7, 2009, 01:10 AM
For a whiles now I've wanted to deeply to get in touch with God again, I lost track of him when I got into high school and I let so many things cloud my mind. And I have so many demons that haunt me. I just want to get these out of me so I can start a new, I will be moving to Australia soon to be with my fianc?. I do not want to burden myself and him with insecurities and demons that I should have let go a long time ago. And yet it seems that I can't, I let them harbor in my heart and at times it gets so bad that all that bad makes me physically ill. I need to tune myself with God and I think that once I am able to do that I can start to heal and become that person that I have been aching to be, I am so close to that but I just can't let go. I need advice from you lovely people on meditation methods possibly or things that I can do for myself to improve. As well I have another question, I was meditating with a mantra recently and suddenly the mantra began to reverberate in my ears, it was the most curious sensation...but I have no idea what it was, does anyone has a clue what that might have been?