justice213
Jun 2, 2008, 09:30 PM
i think im so ugly.. all the things u dont want i have. im probably like 5.6 5.7 168 pounds.im not the smartest i swear theres something my parents are hiding from me like that im half retarded. i always get called ugly and people say they kiddin. i look in the mirror and i feel like im lookin at shrek or an ogre. ive been called an ogre from friends before but they say they kiddin. im not happy at all with the person i am. ive came to the point were i dont like lookin in the mirror if i do i just stare and get depressed. i dont even like gettin pictures of myself.i have chubby cheeks and my rents say its gentics and i can never get rid of it witch i hate. but yet my brothers dont have it. im 19 years old look 16 or 15 and even feel like im that age.i dont have a jaw line or i do but u cant even see it. i probably have like no chin to. i wish i could go on extreme make over. if i could win the lotto i would get alot of things changed. i say that to my mom and she just thinks ill never be happy and awalys want smoething changed so doesnt even listen to me when im down anymore cuz she says shes sick of it.so i really have no one to talk to.ive been runnin hittin the gym and stuff tryin to cut weight but i still dont think that change my apperance. everyone says its genetics and ill never be defined the way i wanna be. i work with my dad and people always like wow u look like ur dad. and he always says ya poor bas t ard laughing. so in other words he knows hes ugly and so am i. just makes me depressed many times ive thought about the question. what is the point.. what do i have to live for. my dog...my mom and dad.. i feel like ill never get a girl friend and have a family of my own. i simply just wish i wasnt me and always lay in bed all comfy wishing i could lay there for ever and not wake up





