fisk
Jan 4, 2008, 12:19 PM
I'm 21 and never had a serious boyfriend(I never really stayed with a guy for longer than a month and never had sex with anyone). I have always been a busy girl, never had that much free time, and it never bothered me before. But it does now, cause I'm in college and have more free time, and also because practically everyone else I know is in a relationship, and I feel the need to have someone too. Not to be like all the others, but to have someone that close by my side, someone to love. I always get along better with older people and I'm always told I'm more mature for my age (difficult childhood made me grow up early). Also, people say that I'm pretty.
I once asked a male friend of mine why he wouldn't ask me out if he liked me and he said I was 'way too dynamic and pretty'. And I'm asking myself: am I suppose to change the way I am to find a boyfriend? Why are people so scared of who I am? Will there ever be a guy who will appreciate it and won't run away...
I know that I will meet someone someday and that it will be great, I believe in that, but I'm sick and tired of waiting. It just seems so easy for some people and too hard for others...
I once asked a male friend of mine why he wouldn't ask me out if he liked me and he said I was 'way too dynamic and pretty'. And I'm asking myself: am I suppose to change the way I am to find a boyfriend? Why are people so scared of who I am? Will there ever be a guy who will appreciate it and won't run away...
I know that I will meet someone someday and that it will be great, I believe in that, but I'm sick and tired of waiting. It just seems so easy for some people and too hard for others...